Yesterday was one of the worst nights I've had all year, and I don't even understand anything that happened. Today was just so exhaustingly busy that I didn't have time to reflect. I went out by myself tonight. It was so refreshing. I saw this really good french movie bought the perfect birthday present for my friend's party tomorrow night. I can't wait to just sleep this off. I hated yesterday. Even it's memory makes me what to shiver and cry. I wish I understood myself better.